I am seriously too obsessive. To the point of disgust. I know right.
I’m so obsessed with Kiko Mizuhara like in a I’m 5 and she’s my idol kinda cute way. It has not progressed to that crazy obsessed stage ala Edie Sedgwick and Kurt Cobain. I am mid-range obsessed with Kiko Mizuhara.
You’re probably going Oh tell me something new nikki and then roll your eyes.
Well. What’s “new” is that my life has seriously sucked for the past week. I had 5 bad days consecutively. Even Elisabeth gave me that “aww..you poor thing” look. Heinous. And she’s at Laneway now watching the FOALS and the TEMPER TRAP. Mega Heinous.
But I am being distracted by the Rachel Zoe show so I’ve been able to soothe my disturbed soul. I have also been waking up at unearthly hours ( 4am, 5am ) in a desperate attempt to finish my projects which I am unable to do cause I am the undoubtly the world’s best procrastinator. GOD. Can’t wait til school is over cause then I can finally do the things I want to the most : shop, read and obsess.
You would think that after all the walking and carrying of my laptop and the irregular meals I would lose weight right? But I think I gained a whole bunch of weight. I know people look at me and think oh she’s gained weight or that she’s very round. I can see it in their eyes. I don’t think I can ever lose weight. I will forever remain this unfortunate size cause according to my dear ol’ mother , I have my auntie’s body shape. Which is not very comforting because she’s relatively full figured. And I look in the mirror and I know I see that roundness . I have absolutely no shoulders , my boobs are massive and I have like big child bearing hips. What a fatty. I know right.
I just need to vent cause I’m super stressed and alone at Starbucks. yes. a lonely fatty.
Kayfankzbye.
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