We Love Animals

Like a G6 Like a G6 Like a G6. meaningful song.

I recently lost faith in humanity and the idea of “friends”. I got played out again. I thought she was my friend but apparently not. This must be the year. The year where I lose lots of friends. And I didn’t have many to begin with. Which I find quite depressing. I don’t even know whats happening. Just read extensively about high school massacres. I (strangely and disturbingly) find them mildly fascinating. horrible right?

Maybe this is the way I’m dealing with my stress as school is approaching. I don’t want to go back to school. Its freaking me out. Like all the people and the noise and the “looks” I assume I’m getting. God. I think I’m going mental. I just don’t want to go back to school and be around people my age. Like its annoying and I get extremely neurotic, doubtful , insecure ,scared. I just cant be around that pressure. Well, I don’t think I will have to guts to shoot anyone so don’t worry. Or slash since guns cannot be purchased in Singapore.

Its already happening. My mind is a big fat mess. So is my body. A big fat mess. At least im consistent. Consistently messed up.

Maybe I feel too much.  That has the potential of sounding very dirrrrty but its not. Get your mind out of the gutter.

                                                           

Did Justin Beiber really say he feels he’s the Kurt Cobain of his generation? I mean he’s cute and all…. but you know… lets not go overboard beiber. He is in no way the new kurt cobain. He’s like the new ice cream sundae. Delicious momentarily but eventually forgettable and ultimately disposable. Oh. And WHAT IS WRONG WITH THESE WOMEN. Are they so repressed by China’s society that they have viciously harm these defenseless animals. Fucking senseless hags. Someone should stone them to death. Or feed their useless bodies to the sharks. They sat on a rabbit???? Why would you do that! I feel extra sad for the rabbit like he probably didn’t even the huge ass coming.

Huh. I never knew beiber is spelt bieber.

I think names are a quintessential part of how a person turns out. Like if you have a really cool name. Cool things will happen. Have I talked about this before. I think I have so I wont elaborate.  

I'm worried.

Aht Uh Mi Head

Here it is another cold (like fucking freezing) morning in the office. I think I should really savour these moments seeing how I have only 2 weeks left of this shizz.. Heehee. I’m feeling a bit frivolous today. Probably because I saw a lot of photos of pretty people. Like JUST. I have this theory that pretty people are treated better. I think average ordinary cookie cutter looking people just cant help but want to like them.  Cause when you look at them it makes you happy. Its like seeing a whole bunch of puppies rolling on the floor. Cant help those damn endorphins/happy vibrations. I think the Victoria Secret Fashion Show makes the world a better place.

I get so stressed recently thinking about people going around slashing. Them slashers. My poor brother. I keep calling and texting him asking him where he is. I think he blocked me on his phone. (He blocked me on facebook. I suspect he has a girlfriend) That little prick. Well I’m worried! I have an overactive imagination. I can see things. Not like the boy from sixth sense but I can like visualize situations very realistically. I wonder why people feel the need to kill others. Its SO SAD and uncalled for and ruthless. Its very criminal minds. Those people need to watch some Victoria Secret asap.

Going to get my jeans tomorrow.  Yes I am. Yes I am. Yes I am. I know I said it last week. Went to the store you know. But Alas!  I chickened out at the store. I refused to try. I’m an avoider. I avoid. I avoid reality and the truth. In this instance I avoided trying cause I didn’t want to find out how fat I am.

Okay bye.

P/s: Watch your back (literally) Those slashers are kinda stealth.

MILK IT.

I've been listening to lots of top 40s recently. I can't get enough of katy perry. Teenage dream is such a fluffy song. Makes me happy. as compared to Sparklehorse.(lead singer/ songwriter committed suicide cause of depression. So he wasn’t exactly writing about frolicking in California in his skin tight jeans) And then I realised : You are what you feed your soul nikki.

And the beibs (!!!!).  Yes the beibster (!!!!!!!!!!). I like him. His music isn’t bad and he’s such a cutie. Plus Usher is his homeboy. His bredren. His brotha. HAHA People don’t like him just because its easy to hate on him. Just scold the helpless little boy cause you feel you are older and cooler and hence authorised to. And well he is not in a position to scold you back. He’s the world’s punching bag.  I've always felt his songs are not as annoying as Lady gaga’s or FLOrida’s (I always thought it was like florida. Yeah like saying it FLOrida makes it less stupid). Poor Beiber. He’s just going to end up like paul the octopus who eventually succumbed the pressure of the death threats. RIP paul.  How much do you think the octopus is worth. He looks yummy. Eating his tentacle would be like eating a fortune teller’s hand. Well 1 of 8 hands. 

HARRY POTTER is coming out!!!! That sounds like he’s gay but he is not (or is he..hmmm). Harry Potter is awesome. Book and movie. University of Sydney looks like Hogwarts which makes me want to go even more. But I’m so afraid I cant make it. my fucking grades. Omg. University of Sydney!!!! To get like admitted , I have to get ALL As next semester.  is that even possible???? OMG WHAT AM I GOING TO DO. And all my friends at work were like “you can go for the interview (IF there is one) . you will ace the interview.” Thanks guys. I'm really feeling the support.

MAYBE if I write an appeal something like how I was a lost soul a vagrant a body without purpose a person with no passion and zeal. But now I have changed my ways. I have reformed. I am now a person who got 2.77 for her last semester GPA. Which is a VAST improvement from the 0.9 one. Oh shit.   I am so not going to make it. This is horrible. I have to work don’t I… like a 9-5 job like the one I am currently at now. I HAVE NO FUTURE. I will be this person who has lost their soul to the evil coporate money making machines.

Damn I’m over dramatic.

If I could be...

who you wanted

all the time

Take my heart, No one lives there anymore

hello. toodleloo. Its raining and Im really bored. Like I cant seem to find the energy to do anything besides shift the cursor from time to time (to you know naivigate) and type very halfheartedly. Its like maybe I had too much junk food. See. My very FAILED diet. I want to be one of those girls who are too lazy to eat or that infuriating "oh hm. I forgot to eat". Well. Then dont forget to fuck yourself also.. HAHA. my mother got a shirt for my brother that says that by the way. Its pretty awesome. I like it. Its very "In your face". 
Oh. I got a mcqueen shirt today. for like 70% off. its plain and kinda okay-ish. But Im decidedly shallow and superficial so I tend to care about brands. So whatever.

My intern...okay I to stop referring to her as MY intern. but THE OTHER intern said I am passive agressive and I think I am also. She's so smart and self-assured. I dont compliment people much. Maybe I should start being nicer. right. Be all fake and happy and nice. Like those stupid retards in disneyland. You see I dont believe that people can TRULY be nice. Like how can someone be SO NICE???? It makes me very uneasy. So I tend to shy away from those people. Cause they mess with my brain. Takes a liar to know another.

 Ive decided.

Im going to buy my jeans next week. Regardless of any changes in my weight.

Yes I am Yes I am Yes I am.