MR G.

 Walrus!!!!!    

 

Reow reow reeeeoowww

Summer Heights High...So addictive

20.2

Fade Out

Thom Yorke:

'Street Spirit' is our purest song, but I didn't write it. It wrote itself. We were just its messengers; its biological catalysts. Its core is a complete mystery to me, and, you know, I wouldn't ever try to write something that hopeless. All of our saddest songs have somewhere in them at least a glimmer of resolve. 'Street Spirit' has no resolve. It is the dark tunnel without the light at the end. It represents all tragic emotion that is so hurtful that the sound of that melody is its only definition. We all have a way of dealing with that song. It's called detachment. Especially me; I detach my emotional radar from that song, or I couldn't play it. I'd crack. I'd break down on stage. That's why its lyrics are just a bunch of mini-stories or visual images as opposed to a cohesive explanation of its meaning. I used images set to the music that I thought would convey the emotional entirety of the lyric and music working together. That's what's meant by 'all these things you'll one day swallow whole'. I meant the emotional entirety, because I didn't have it in me to articulate the emotion. I'd crack...

Our fans are braver than I to let that song penetrate them, or maybe they don't realise what they're listening to. They don't realise that 'Street Spirit' is about staring the fucking devil right in the eyes, and knowing, no matter what the hell you do, he'll get the last laugh. And it's real, and true. The devil really will get the last laugh in all cases without exception, and if I let myself think about that too long, I'd crack.

I can't believe we have fans that can deal emotionally with that song. That's why I'm convinced that they don't know what it's about. It's why we play it towards the end of our sets. It drains me, and it shakes me, and hurts like hell every time I play it, looking out at thousands of people cheering and smiling, oblivious to the tragedy of its meaning, like when you're going to have your dog put down and it's wagging its tail on the way there. That's what they all look like, and it breaks my heart. I wish that song hadn't picked us as its catalysts, and so I don't claim it. It asks too much. I didn't write that song

Little Joy

Meh.

Up with the world. Down with God.

Just wanted to say that...for some reason.  Which is kinda weird cause I am the neither up with the world nor down with God.

 So school has basically taken over my life and it’s not letting up. I have 2 upcoming tests next week. Like seriously. Ugh.

But despite the mundane and insipid daily occurance which is school, I quite enjoy school in all its mundane-ness and insipid-ness.  At least I feel like I am working towards a goal (graduating) and I am accomplishing something. I am dreading the post graduation days where I have to make decisions about the future that I don’t want to make.  

SIGH, LIFE

In better news, I have stumbled across really good music and a good book which makes me slightly happy.  Depressing/emo/melancholic music plus good book are an unbeatable combination.

I just realised, despite all my feminist inclinations, that guys have better taste in music. Which makes me quite sad. Are females really the lesser of both sexes?  Another observation...guys with blogs always post one picture and like have a maximum of 10 personal words per entry. I wish I was like that.  I just HAVE to talk so much. Too many thoughts.

Recently, I have been visualising possible death situations. It’s nothing to be worried about cause I think everybody does that...I assume. It’s just that I wonder if its taboo to keep thinking about these things cause like it would be totally creepy if it just happens one day.

Oh.  I have been thinking about boyfriends also.  Mynn brought up a critical point that we are closing to the big 2-0 but we haven’t had boyfriends. Ever.  And that worries me.  Like I feel like I am missing out on something that should be there already.

But then I figured, I shouldn’t settle for someone just for the sake of having a boyfriend.  I should only settle when I find someone that will completely and utterly rock.my.world.  But I don’t believe this will ever happen cause guys like that do not fall for girls like me. I don’t know... I think boys need a lot of effort. And I am too lazy.  So that means I only have myself to blame. Hah.

The Sex 3.