Meh.

Up with the world. Down with God.

Just wanted to say that...for some reason.  Which is kinda weird cause I am the neither up with the world nor down with God.

 So school has basically taken over my life and it’s not letting up. I have 2 upcoming tests next week. Like seriously. Ugh.

But despite the mundane and insipid daily occurance which is school, I quite enjoy school in all its mundane-ness and insipid-ness.  At least I feel like I am working towards a goal (graduating) and I am accomplishing something. I am dreading the post graduation days where I have to make decisions about the future that I don’t want to make.  

SIGH, LIFE

In better news, I have stumbled across really good music and a good book which makes me slightly happy.  Depressing/emo/melancholic music plus good book are an unbeatable combination.

I just realised, despite all my feminist inclinations, that guys have better taste in music. Which makes me quite sad. Are females really the lesser of both sexes?  Another observation...guys with blogs always post one picture and like have a maximum of 10 personal words per entry. I wish I was like that.  I just HAVE to talk so much. Too many thoughts.

Recently, I have been visualising possible death situations. It’s nothing to be worried about cause I think everybody does that...I assume. It’s just that I wonder if its taboo to keep thinking about these things cause like it would be totally creepy if it just happens one day.

Oh.  I have been thinking about boyfriends also.  Mynn brought up a critical point that we are closing to the big 2-0 but we haven’t had boyfriends. Ever.  And that worries me.  Like I feel like I am missing out on something that should be there already.

But then I figured, I shouldn’t settle for someone just for the sake of having a boyfriend.  I should only settle when I find someone that will completely and utterly rock.my.world.  But I don’t believe this will ever happen cause guys like that do not fall for girls like me. I don’t know... I think boys need a lot of effort. And I am too lazy.  So that means I only have myself to blame. Hah.